No Secret

I have purchased and listened to the audio version of The Secret by Rhonda Byrnes and have begun to see the world with new eyes. I am focusing on how lucky I am to have choices rather than whining about the tough choices I make and have made.
Perhaps by focusing on the things I am grateful for- I will forget about the other "trivial" things. I have created a mission and it goes like this...
1. I'm done feeling guilty about any of my selfish actions or thoughts. Its okay to take care of myself sometimes and it doesn't make me a BAD mom or Bad wife.
2. I practice positive thinking on a daily basis by remembering to remember ALL the people in my life that I am grateful for.
3. I can eat whatever I want and still maintain a perfect body weight. (this is POSSIBLE)
4. I will be financially free someday soon. I have NO idea how, but I trust that it will happen AND soon.
5. I listen more and talk less than I did before now.
6. I expect more of myself and FOR myself.
7. I remember that I am a pretty smart cookie and that I can control my mind and, in turn, control my universe.
8. I post to my blog at least 3x's a week.
9. I follow the flow of my life and NOT fight it.
10. I am finding out the answer to this question "what is my passion?"

Can anyone hear me?

This is a scary new venture for me. But fear (or sense) hasn't stopped me from many things. My husband and I have 2 small children who keep me very busy on the days I am home. I also work part time (about 2o hrs a week) to keep our family from getting too far into debt and to keep one foot in the career world for when my kids get older. Some days I second guess my decision to continue working, and other days I second guess my decision to cut back to part-time hours. Many days I go thru the range of emotions on both sides. I enjoy being with my kids but also derive a lot of satisfaction and accopmplishment from the days I work at the office.

Our financial situation is not BAD but our h0me needs a lot of updating and we will probably need to get a new car soon.

I love being with my kids but I HATE housework and put it off as much as I can. I have, on occasion paid someone to clean ( about 5 times in 6 years) but I feel guilty doing it and also feel like I should save the money towards our house or family vacation or something else.

I don't generally have a lot of time to write, but am I am trying to take some time out for me so that I be more focused on the tasks that help me acheive my goals.

Is there anyone else that can relate?